I’ve
always thought of myself as athletic, but I could never break the barrier to
believing myself an athlete. The same way I think of myself as artistic and not
an artist. As someone who writes, not a writer.
I swam, did gymnastics, and was always active as a kid. I played volleyball and was a cheerleader in high school. I continued to be active as an adult, I did gymnastics in my 30’s, and I ran a local 12k race each year. At 38 I was diagnosed with MS, and it made me question how much I’d be able to aspire to. Still, I did a marathon last year, a sprint triathlon this summer, and an Olympic distance triathlon this fall.
I swam, did gymnastics, and was always active as a kid. I played volleyball and was a cheerleader in high school. I continued to be active as an adult, I did gymnastics in my 30’s, and I ran a local 12k race each year. At 38 I was diagnosed with MS, and it made me question how much I’d be able to aspire to. Still, I did a marathon last year, a sprint triathlon this summer, and an Olympic distance triathlon this fall.
Running
today I thought about how much I downplay how I do things. I’m happy I do them
and proud of what I can do, but I qualify these skills knowing I’m not as accomplished
at them as the real athletes, artists and writers.
What
am I waiting for? Does it matter if
others agree with how I see myself? Of course not. So today I decided I’m
already an athlete. I don’t need to wait until I’m faster, stronger or
perceived as an athlete.
I
think this will be a good attitude to hold for reaching goals and designing my
life. If I believe I’m already an athlete, I think I’ll be less likely to give myself
an out when faced with temptation to do things that conflict with that label. I
may be inclined to aspire to more instead of thinking only the real
athletes, artists and writers can accomplish that goal. I may not hold myself
back as much.
I put
together a photo composite to help me remember, “I Am An Athlete.”